Quit

I am not a quitter, generally speaking. When I played sports as a young lady, I was the one on the team encouraging and playing their heart out until the final whistle, holding on to hope that we could win against all the odds.

I have been happily married for nearly 18 years. This is not an accident, but a continual dying to myself in order to become more like Christ. We didn't quit when things got hard, we went to counseling. We didn't believe the lies others told us, we believed that what God had brought together, man could not separate. Quitting is not an option.

In the last 3 years I got my associates degree, my bachelors degree, and started a masters program. I didn't quit teaching my 4 kids full-time and for most of that time, I was working too. It would have been so much easier to just quit something, but I know there are certain things that God has called me to do, and teaching my children is number 1.

I had ten days off between graduation and starting school again. I could have quit when I had my BS, after all there is only 32% of the American population with that level of education. I am good at school, I love learning, and God paid for my program, so why quit? If my goal since I was a little girl was to be a doctor of psychology, why should I stop moving towards this call?

Nope, my quitting comes in the unseen. I quit the things that feed my soul, like writing my book or sharing here in this blog space. These are the daily practices that I need to cultivate as a writer that desires to bring hope to a hurting world. I justify it as no one will miss just one day, but the reality is I am being unfaithful with the small things and expecting God to still give me bigger and better opportunities.

I need to quit just writing when I feel inspired, but write to write. It could all be garbage and end up in the trash bin tomorrow, but today, I wrote words. It is hard, and difficult, but it is being faithful to what God is doing in me in this season and if all I want to do is glorify him, then it is worth it to keep moving forward.